formerlybostonchile

Just finished the oral exam of my fourth rotation. I can hardly believe it. I am two rotations away from finishing my third year. Where does time go to? Sha , it's not been easy. I failed my first rotation exams - the oral and the written. I am still in shock myself but I have finally come to accept it. Also, to recognize that failing it does not mean that I am a failure. But, I must admit when I heard that news in October, I went into depression. Well, a mini-depression (ironically, I was doing my psych rotation at that time lol ). I stopped working out and everything. I got even more anxious than I am already, and I am an anxious person. But with time, I now understand what I did wrong. #1. I missed the memo that the exam was past board questions. I did not find this out until a week before the exam. #2. I spent my time studying from the wrong book. #3. I left my notebook with all my notes in Boston! How stupid huh! I didn't find it until after the exam. In fact, I think this...

i am trusting God with everything that i've got i'm trusting God with all my dreams, my hopes, my joy i'm trusting God with all my fears, my hates, my insecurities the pain at the pit of my stomach the tears rolling down my cheeks all of my failures, all of my doubts i'm trusting God through this night that has lasted six long years with only a moment or two of sunshine to help me endure the months and months of dark O Lord I'm trusting You through my doubts I wonder if You hear, I wonder if You care I wonder what Your plans are I wonder if they include my joy Sometimes I whisper a lie - You must hate me Then try to cover it up with the truth - Romans eight But I return to that lie again and again When You won't let me get my way Why won't You let me get my way Lord What is wrong with my way? What do You see that i don't? And why won't You share it with me? So I could be at ease, at peace But I guess that's why it's called trust The alternati...