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I just want to be close to you...

So the plan for this week was to do 6 posts. Of course, I immediately fell off. I really don't have much to blog about this week. Just trying to keep my head above water, and my spirits high. I really hope to get some writing done this weekend, as well as some cleaning. I know one thing for sure though, no more shopping!

Gongo aso...

I had the oddest dream. It's already fading away now, but somehow, I was a child again, in charge of a lot of children. I was supposed to be asleep but wasn't. I am not sure what I was doing. When it was time to wake up, i gave my charges a lecture about how i was tired of doing everything. I had to go to school but i wanted to stay in bed and sleep.  I was tempted to but then i remembered I had a quiz and I couldn't skip. Really odd. Somehow, I came back or woke up and the children had fixed the space we were staying in and it looked very nice. They had made all the beds. I usually only have time to make one before it's time to ?go somewhere, ?do something. I said it was an odd dream. I am still in bed. Should have been awake at least an hour and some change ago. But I couldn't wake up and fought my alarm clock bitterly. I kept telling myself, just turn on the light and you will wake up but I didn't want to. I finally woke up when some random random called me

some song that refuses to make itself known

So, the weekend was a bit of a let down. I couldn't for the life of me find the Las Cruces Farmer's Market. I made it to the address listed on the website without issues. I was a bit worried because it said it was downtown and the area did not look like a downtown at all. It was in a very residential looking place, with trees and houses. Anyway, I kept driving, looking for farmers and things until I almost ended up back on the highway. All I kept seeing were masses of baseball players. Finally, I parked and walked around. Yup, my contacts were not deceiving me, the place was filled with baseball players. As it turned out, the address was for the community center. I walked in and the guy directed me down the street. He said, "drive down, all the way and you will find a parking lot filled with them." I followed his directions to a t (ok maybe, i went elsewhere first to look for an ATM, I am a cashless person, and in my haste to leave ELP on time, i forgot to stop at an

You hate the fact that you bought the dream when they sold you one...

Of all the songs I heard yesterday, it's the one I didn't care much for that I woke up with in my head. I don't even know the lyrics and kept making them up in my head, actually switching it back to the original line. LOL. Had to look it up and listen to video several times while writing this post. Does it count? I actually liked Drakey drake when he first came out, but now all his radio songs sound just alike. But what is my own? It has made him a superstar abi with millions of fans and money. Anyway, yay the weekend! I went on a mini shopping spree on Thursday and Friday. I don't know what my issue is sometimes, I am on a BUDGET. Obviously, it means nothing to me. LOL. Tired of being in deprivation mode jo. But I digress. I went to Walmart looking to buy my succulents but of course, the Wal-mart near my house let me down as it always does. That place is just big for nothing jo. I saw some at the one next to my job, perfect size, looked great. perfect price. I didn

Mo gbono fele fele

To think just 0.75 miles of a run and I feel great again. Until I went to work that is, but I will not discuss that here. Even though I really want to do so. But suffice it to say that maybe I should follow through on that e-mail my little sister sent me months ago. Friday at last. Why am I not excited?  I am going to start listing things to be excited about to get myself all pumped up. Am alive, so I can still make decisions I have the weekend off Farmer's market Saturday My clothes are fitting better I am finally getting over the congestion and cough I just went through my mint.com account. Oooh wee. Almost had a heart attack because I thought I was spending way too much on shopping. But after re-categorizing a few things here and there, it looked more reasonable. Still, why do i have to go through all that???? Why can't it recognize the categories automatically? Note: still spending way too much for someone supposed to be on a tight budget. But not as bad as it mad

Cravings

CB2 Smart glass top console table Target Patio Set.  West Elm Square Parson's Table Home Decorator's Moroccan Trellis Rug
I had a patient yesterday who was down and out. Nothing was wrong, but he just felt so tired every time he thought about his life. He was in a word, bored. All work and no play whatsoever. I could actually relate to the poor thing even though he was barely out of his tweens.  I feel the same way, hours and hours and hours at work with nothing to look forward to at night IS depressing. There just has to be more to life than working all day long, every day. Hmm. I tried to tell him about delayed gratification and all that but even I wasn't buying it. The funny thing is when i do go somewhere I can't wait to go home. I went to a dinner last night about a medication and goodness me, i was done, ready to be home after the first five minutes.  I know it's because am an introvert, and having to be on for more than 8 hours just drains me. I hate talking, I hate smiling, and I hate being outgoing. But I love kids and I hate being in debt so there you go. I am trying to get out o
I think it is pretty amazing how quickly one can fall out of a habit. I haven't been able to wake up at 5am like I used to do, maybe the time change + this damn cold, and so everything has fallen out of order. No workout. No breakfast. No lunch. Sleep late. Rinse, repeat. Hmm. Am pondering on that one for a minute. So what do I need to do to get back on my exercise kick? It doesn't help that the weight is dropping off anyway, since I am not eating. Although, I did, might have, maybe overindulged a tiny bit this weekend. Am not telling! I thought the horrible lunch I had yesterday will kick me into gear. It certainly made me not want to eat dinner last night, but at the last minute I started starving. BUT I didn't give into gari and sugar. Am too proud of me. I actually ate my baby carrots, which were sweet and refreshing and made a tuna tortilla wrap. LOL. Don't ask. It was all I had in the house. I really need to go food shopping. Actually, I have some random

Get it together...

Ok, I have been using this illness as an excuse for far too long. I haven't worked out in a week. I haven't written in my blog. My house is a disaster area. My fridge is empty. I need to get it together. Get off the couch. Get out of bed at my normal time of 5am and get my act together. And all this starts today. Am making a list right here, in the hope that I will be motivated to actually accomplish it. It's a simple list too. Clean Cook Hang up my paintings Return my library book and get a book on upholstery Write. I need to stop online window shopping and focus. I did find my console, well something that will do for now, on Amazon. Amazon.com I am finding it hard to pull the trigger though. In the meantime, I have the vase for said console. Found it at Marshall's on Friday. It was on clearance for $10. I passed on it, along with the lamp that would have been perfect for my bedside table but I felt I was being impulsive in my spending. Anyway, I couldn

What a week

What a crazy week last week was, I can't believe I fell ill. Unfortunately though, each time I think am better, another symptom comes and rears its head. Now my stomach is complaining and it's not cos am hungry. I worked out with my trainer yesterday and I had to rest between each set because I felt exhausted. I fell asleep on the couch like at 8ish and still overslept this morning. I guess I won't resume my morning jogs until the end of the week, maybe. And I'm working this weekend. Argh! I think some retail therapy is in order. I deserve it anyway, most of my work pants are sliding off my hips. But knowing me, I will probably shop for the house instead. Projects for the week: Bathroom: Hang up my new piece of art . It looked better on the site but i still love it. Just $4 bucks after all is said and done. I got a poster frame from goodwill for $2. I was thinking of buying some gray or black posterboard and using that as a backdrop for the piece. I need to get

Weekly meditation.

"And work for the peace and prosperity of the city where I sent you into exile. Pray to the LORD for it, for its welfare will determine your welfare.” --Jeremiah 29:7 This verse really struck a chord with me when I read it. Moving to El Paso was not my first choice. All throughout residency, especially that last year, what sustained me was knowing that soon, I would be done with hard work and poverty and I could finally enjoy the beautiful city of Miami. The sun, the beach, the sun, the beach! But this was not to be for me. As graduation approached, I searched  high and low for a job. Interviews were scarce, and the few that I went on had fierce competition. I went on two or three interviews where I was certain I would for sure get the position, only to hear that the position had gone to someone else. Needless to say, I felt rejected. I couldn't even mourn publicly because my friends were the one getting the jobs that I so wanted, to mourn for me, would be, I felt, seen a

My chair

So I found an advert for my chair from a texas paper in 1988. It cost $180 rounded off. Maddox wing chair . Supposedly in today's dollars, that's about $360. Don't mind me, I'm trying to calculate the acceptable cost for reupholstering said chair.

That explains that...

So all this time I was calling myself a lazy so and so, and wondering how I could fall asleep while taking out braids, my poor body was battling the flu and possibly strep throat. O ga ju. Everything came to a head on Thursday with fever, chills, body aches et al. I even got sent home early on Thursday. I could barely drive home, I cursed myself again for not following my decision to live close to work, the twenty miles to my house felt like 40 and I felt a bit delirious so I couldn't drive at my usually breakneck speed of 80mph but a sedate pace of 60. Because I said I would, I went back to work on Friday even though I felt like pure unadulterated garbage. Didn't even feel like eating either. Of course, I got into it with one of my patient's mother. Her poor child had viral pharyngitis and I told her so but she insisted on antibiotics. Ay dios mio. I know if I wasn't sick, I would have been more patient. But my throat was on fire, my legs were barely holding up and m

A song of strength

i whip my hair back and forth...

I went thrifting the other day at a Goodwill store that has everything except furniture 50% off. It was the same one I dashed into before I jumped on my flight last friday. The same one I found my arm chair. The armchair was still there, and now the cashier told me that even furniture is 50% off, making that chair 15$$$. Am soooooooooooooooo tempted. I have been searching online all last night (instead of cleaning) for DIY upholstery. It also has a leg broken and I wonder if I could fix that. Mehn, am still thinking about that chair, I think that if I go back tonight after work and it is still there, then it's on. I am taking it with me. And then I have to fall back because I have gone a bit crazy buying stuff lately, with all the shoes i've been eyeing and buying. Actually, am going to return one of them because my foot couldn't even fit. It's just as well. I didn't realize I had spent so much on said shoe! I guess am a typical woman because I had subtracted oh

Told y'all i was gonna bump like this...

Time is moving swiftly along. March already!! Wow!!!! Am not ready! Since I got back from Vegas, I've been dragging. I literally come home and go straight to bed, although last night I finished the latest Elizabeth George Believe the Lie and then went to bed. I couldn't put it down actually, I think this is one of her best works yet and I think I have read almost all of them. I mean most of the time, I can usually tell where a novel is going to end but this had so many plot twists and turns that I wasn't sure what was going to happen. It was really well done. Some of her books have actually been made into movies but as much as I love the characters and I cry for them and with them, I just couldn't bear to watch it on screen. In fact, I generally don't like watching movies made from books I've read, unless it's a frothy light book and even then I get mad when they change stuff around. So yeah, i've been dragging and my house is an untoward mess. Ye